I can't stop dying all over again....

I can't stop feeding myself with death pills...

I can't stop replaying the death scene in me....

I just can't stop myself... I really can't. It's so torturous yet I make myself go through it all the time. Can somebody just rescue me out of this? I don't know how long more I can continue being like this.... Sometimes I WISH I CAN JUST DIE. I admit my weaknesses, I just can't fight no more. I give up...... I give up.....